Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Wishcast Wednesday - What burden to you wish to put down?

Wishcast Wednesday again and this week, Jamie Ridler asks...

What burden to you wish to put down?

This wish prompt makes me want to just sit right down and sob.  I didn't realize how burdened I felt until I read this prompt.

I think that I try so much to be optimistic and positive and I try to think of my issues in a positive light that they will soon be gone.  I do positive affirmations, positive thinking and yet I know that I still carry a lot of "stuff".

Of course, I wish to let go of the burden of my "stuff", but I also know that I am a work in progress and that the "stuff" is full of lessons that I have not learned yet and issues I need to work through.

I have one specific burden that weighs heavier and is more painful than the others; that is the burden of the pain, heartbreak, fear, and self-recriminations that is the residue of an abusive relationship.

I wish to put down and walk away from the burden of thinking I could have changed anything about that situation.  That I could have changed how I responded or how he treated me.  That I could have or should have left earlier than I did.  That I let him change me. 

I think I have been holding onto these self-loathing thoughts for too long--it's time to let them go.

You did what you knew, now that you know better, you'll do better.
- Maya Angelou/Oprah


It's never too late--in fiction or in life--to reivise.  - Nancy Thayer


Thank you!

As you all wish for yourself, I so truly and sincerly wish for all of you!

12 comments:

  1. Such a sincere wish, Ceanna. Oh, how your soul shines through this wish and how my soul rises up to greet you with love.

    As Ceanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.....

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  2. Regret is such a joy stealer. I hope that you live in freedom. As you wish, so I wish for you, too.

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  3. What a beautiful wish. As you wish for yourself, I so lovingly wish for you as well!~

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  4. What a great wish. As Ceanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her.

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  5. As someone who is also seeking to lay down the burdens of a past abusive relationship and the regrets of having been through it, I wish this for you as well... :)

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  6. Erin is right. It's not your fault and you deserve much better!
    As you wish for yourself, so do I wish for you as well.

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  7. As Ceanne wishes for herself, so I wholeheartedly wish also.~*

    Much Joy, Much Healing,
    Molly

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  8. Be kind and loving to yourself. As Ceanne wishes for herself, so do I lovingly wish for her as well!

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  9. Healing wishes for you. As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also. ~M

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  10. What a fabulous cleansing wish ...Ceanne ...may you be free of the memories that hold you back from living in this moment only ... Things take as long as they take!

    As you wish for yourself I so lovingly wish this for you also. xxxx

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  11. Thank you all for your kind words, thoughts, and wishes.

    Sarah Lulu - you said just the perfect thing! Yes, I move forward in my power knowing that they are just memories that have been holding me back from living my best life.

    Thank you!!!

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  12. Even though they are "just memories" they can be insidious sometimes. Best of luck to you as you move beyond them. As Ceanne wishes for herself, so do I lovingly wish for her.

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